Hurt, pain, disappointment, regret - all very valid reasons for running to hide, but how long can you, how happy will you, how satisfied are you to exist in a place of limited joy? Yes, your joy is limited.
You wear these feelings like a cloak of comfort and think within yourself that they are a badge to honor your perseverance through and above them all. But are you being honest with yourself or have you grown so complacent that life without them has left you numb?
I can speak to this because I used to be this - this less than happy, limited, person. I used to exist in a place where rocking the boat was not an option and speaking from my heart would get me slapped. It was not a pretty place. No matter how I dressed it up with wide-toothed smiles and boisterous laughter beneath the mask, just like me, they existed.
So how did I remove the mask of hurt, pain, disappointment and regret? I found my way to LIVE! and you can too!
Find your way to where you no longer just merely exist. Find your way to where you no longer swallow yourself whole with guilt. Find your way to where you no longer remain in the shadows of your feelings.
This re-branding of yourself, this emergence of who you are, this rebirth of who you were meant to be is - will be - a testament of the strength the hurt tried to beat out of you, the will that pain tried to tame in you, the truth that disappointment tried to destroy in you, the life that regret tried to consume in you.
The past is now a lesson that you will learn to grow from. The past is a place you will no longer exist. The past is what once was and not a reflection of what will be. Move away from it and embrace the freshness that is you. Allow your soul the freedom that healing can give. Give yourself permission to live! You are worth it! You deserve it! You don't need anyone's permission to do it!
We're waiting to see you Bloom!!!
It wasn't easy but I knew that in order to help somebody, in order to help the masses. I had to be unapologetic in telling a truth!
Depression is a very real symptom of Lupus but I was depressed WWWWAAAYYY before I got my diagnosis!
My family life was in pure chaos and I had mentally checked out on trying to deal with the emotion stress of trying to "fix it". I was a complete mess but I was a FUNCTIONING MESS!
When I began writing Learning to Live Healthy - A Lupus Survivor's Story I got the chance to really look back in hindsight at the type of life I was living and the added pressure I was applying to my OWN SELF!
I had unresolved issues and then the diagnosis came and I just literally gave up! But then one day - Life gave me a reason to SMILE! and I have been doing just that ever since!
In life, we all go through some things and in life, we all learn from those things. How we apply that learning is completely up to us. We are the definers of our destiny and the defenders of our purpose. How we choose to overcome adversity is just that - OUR CHOICE!
I chose to tell my story of how I overcame depression and denial, anger and frustration and began to embrace the goodness of life and accept my place in it and LIVE!
This is the primary message I want to send to the masses and I am requesting your help to do it.
My book - Learning to Live Healthy A Lupus Survivor's Story is nominated with the Author Academy Awards for BEST HEALTH BOOK and I couldn't be more proud!
When It comes to telling our stories, understanding our reason and intent are key! We limit ourselves by saying "I can help just one person.....". We have to STOP THINKING SMALL! Our thought should be "As I speak my story to reach the masses..."
Are you ready to be unapologetically REAL?
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Not here to counsel you, not claiming to know all the answers, not trying to change your mind, not trying to direct your path. Here to listen, here to share, here to let you know that a Sista cares.